A few words to summarize today-eth...
The Kids' Club. Next week's Starbuck's schedule. CCE Catechist application. Feminine products from Walgreen's. Lunchbreak w/ Paolo. Tail lights. Paolo & yummy foods. "We'll hit the gym hard tomorrow." Whose Line is It Anyway? Grande Verona with room. Office Space. DiaryLand.

This list should really include "Senior Thesis." Perhaps by the night's end, it shall. Perhaps...
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I get waaaay too much sleep nowadays. Maybe THAT'S the problem. Productivity rates, multitasking, time-management, efficiency, goal-orientation...all indelible parts of my daily. Will I ever learn how to just sit still? And like it? I dunno, mayn, but I'm tryin...

I do feel Paolo on the us being somewhat "comically mismatched" tip, though. He helps take the edge off. He's the Saturday at the beach, while I'm the Monday morning at work. We meet each other somewhere in the middle.

I've never been very good at emotional gushiness, so I don't tell him this nearly enough. But ours is by far the most fruitful, rewarding, and fulfilling relationship I've ever had. He's been an incredible inspiration to me in aspects of my life that I've neglected in a narrowminded pursuit of achievement; namely faith, love, and creativity.

I used to convince myself that making good grades and fattening up my resume at all costs were all necessary, though unsavory, means to serving & realizing God's purpose for my life. Throughout college, (ironically) my spiritual life was never what it should have been; I said "No" to boyfriends; and my interests in music/piano/drawing/voice all got the shaft. Though writing, mainly in this stupid journal, remained my one constant creative outlet, I never felt whole. I rationalized my lifestyle with a Work Then Play mantra.

Paolo has truly been a blessing in my life. I didn't want or expect to fall in love at this point in my life, but I wouldn't have it any other way. He's magnified in my life areas that needed nourishment, and he's shown me how to slow down and take life in. He has a calming, easygoing energy about him that counterbalances my high-strung-ed-ness. And I dig that.

I never thought I'd be an SFC'er or that I'd be brushing up on my piano to help out w/ the music ministry. I never thought I'd be teaching CCE this soon. I never thought I'd be going to as my live shows as I have or indulging in my music addiction. I never thought I could laugh with and spend my days with someone who makes me feel as whole as he does.

I'm incredibly grateful for everything you've blessed my life with. I'm incredibly grateful that I've been able to be as positive an influence in your life as you say I have. We complement one another, and I thank God everyday for us.

Here's to always, Paolo.
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